1 00:00:33,861 --> 00:00:35,661 [George] Home time. 2 00:01:12,341 --> 00:01:13,741 [Yvonne] Dear X... 3 00:01:16,501 --> 00:01:18,301 you made me feel special. 4 00:01:20,621 --> 00:01:22,221 But I'm not special. 5 00:01:25,701 --> 00:01:27,501 I know what I am now. 6 00:01:28,701 --> 00:01:30,021 Nothing. 7 00:01:31,101 --> 00:01:32,341 No one. 8 00:01:34,181 --> 00:01:36,461 It turns out that all it really takes for your life 9 00:01:36,541 --> 00:01:39,861 and everything you thought about yourself to change forever... 10 00:01:41,221 --> 00:01:43,021 isn't love or passion. 11 00:01:44,501 --> 00:01:45,901 All it takes 12 00:01:46,941 --> 00:01:50,141 is one good, hard slap. 13 00:03:05,741 --> 00:03:07,861 [children playing] 14 00:04:35,621 --> 00:04:37,221 [sobbing quietly] 15 00:04:50,261 --> 00:04:52,341 [phone ringing] 16 00:05:01,941 --> 00:05:05,581 [X] Hello? Are you playing it cool? 17 00:05:05,661 --> 00:05:08,301 [he chuckles] Yvonne? 18 00:05:08,981 --> 00:05:10,181 Hello? 19 00:05:11,301 --> 00:05:12,781 Is everything OK? 20 00:05:13,541 --> 00:05:14,741 No. 21 00:05:20,261 --> 00:05:22,421 [Big Ben chiming] 22 00:05:28,381 --> 00:05:29,901 -Hi. -Hey. 23 00:05:40,021 --> 00:05:41,421 Oh, Jesus. 24 00:05:49,381 --> 00:05:50,661 Did you know him? 25 00:05:51,861 --> 00:05:53,061 Who was he? 26 00:05:55,101 --> 00:05:56,501 George Selway. 27 00:06:00,181 --> 00:06:04,221 He was at the party. He works at the university. 28 00:06:05,381 --> 00:06:10,621 We do external exams, you know, panels together. 29 00:06:14,381 --> 00:06:16,581 I've known him for about two years. 30 00:06:20,341 --> 00:06:22,541 He couldn't have seemed more harmless. 31 00:06:22,621 --> 00:06:26,621 You... you haven't got any marks on... on your face or... 32 00:06:27,181 --> 00:06:29,141 He used the flat of his hand. 33 00:06:32,101 --> 00:06:33,861 Like he knew what he was doing. 34 00:06:36,541 --> 00:06:39,741 Have you got bruises anywhere else? 35 00:06:47,661 --> 00:06:49,461 I've got, um... 36 00:06:51,901 --> 00:06:55,381 I've got finger bruises on my thighs from when he... 37 00:07:02,261 --> 00:07:04,461 And I've got internal bruising. 38 00:07:07,661 --> 00:07:09,261 And an anal tear. 39 00:07:13,781 --> 00:07:15,501 I didn't fight back. 40 00:07:26,661 --> 00:07:30,981 Listen, do you want me to get some people to take a statement from you? 41 00:07:31,061 --> 00:07:34,981 No, a team that's used to handling this sort of thing. 42 00:07:35,061 --> 00:07:37,421 I can't make a statement, you know I can't. 43 00:07:37,501 --> 00:07:39,501 If they take a swab... 44 00:07:42,381 --> 00:07:46,941 you... your semen will be on it. 45 00:07:48,381 --> 00:07:52,661 Jesus! Your semen will be on it as well as his. 46 00:07:53,741 --> 00:07:56,061 You could... you could leave it for a bit. 47 00:07:56,141 --> 00:07:58,541 They don't necessarily need forensic evidence 48 00:07:58,621 --> 00:08:00,741 -to bring a prosecution. -It's OK. 49 00:08:03,781 --> 00:08:05,181 I don't want you to. 50 00:08:09,421 --> 00:08:11,461 I just needed to see you. 51 00:08:14,421 --> 00:08:15,821 What about your husband? 52 00:08:17,261 --> 00:08:18,741 Are you going to tell him? 53 00:08:20,541 --> 00:08:21,621 No. 54 00:08:21,701 --> 00:08:24,061 Won't it be obvious there's something wrong? 55 00:08:24,141 --> 00:08:28,701 I'll just be ill. I'll... I'll be ill for a few days. 56 00:08:42,701 --> 00:08:44,421 Well, you're not hot. 57 00:08:45,101 --> 00:08:48,341 It comes and goes. I took a paracetamol. 58 00:08:48,421 --> 00:08:49,621 Oh. 59 00:08:51,221 --> 00:08:55,181 -How was Sunderland? -Windy. 60 00:08:58,781 --> 00:09:02,221 You don't have to exile yourself in here, you know. 61 00:09:02,301 --> 00:09:05,301 I might be up in the night. You never get back to sleep. 62 00:09:06,261 --> 00:09:09,101 Are you sure it's not just the hangover from hell? 63 00:09:11,821 --> 00:09:13,701 I'll bring you a cuppa. 64 00:09:45,021 --> 00:09:46,461 [movement downstairs] 65 00:09:47,901 --> 00:09:50,021 [footsteps] 66 00:09:52,021 --> 00:09:54,821 [footsteps climbing the stairs] 67 00:09:56,981 --> 00:09:58,181 [man] Hey! 68 00:09:59,261 --> 00:10:00,861 Anyone in? 69 00:10:00,941 --> 00:10:02,141 Adam? 70 00:10:04,621 --> 00:10:05,981 Hi, Mum. 71 00:10:08,261 --> 00:10:10,061 What are you doing in my room? 72 00:10:15,181 --> 00:10:17,581 You sure you don't want some toast or something? 73 00:10:17,661 --> 00:10:18,821 I'm good, thanks. 74 00:10:20,581 --> 00:10:23,221 It's OK, then? Just for a bit? 75 00:10:23,861 --> 00:10:26,661 Adam, love, this is your home. Stay as long as you like. 76 00:10:26,741 --> 00:10:30,021 It's just a couple of days. Just to sort some stuff out. 77 00:10:30,101 --> 00:10:32,461 Stuff to do with your music, or... 78 00:10:33,021 --> 00:10:35,021 Maybe I will make myself some toast. 79 00:10:39,061 --> 00:10:41,341 [Yvonne] You've reached Dr Carmichael's phone. 80 00:10:41,421 --> 00:10:42,861 I'm out of the office. 81 00:10:42,941 --> 00:10:45,661 For urgent enquiries, please contact my assistant, 82 00:10:45,741 --> 00:10:49,741 Rupa Patel, on extension 223. Thanks, bye. 83 00:10:49,821 --> 00:10:51,621 [TV on] 84 00:11:14,381 --> 00:11:15,581 [door shuts] 85 00:12:07,861 --> 00:12:10,661 -[grunting] -[whimpers] 86 00:12:29,861 --> 00:12:31,581 The twisted little fuck. 87 00:12:34,421 --> 00:12:36,221 You did the right thing. 88 00:12:37,621 --> 00:12:39,701 Just cut off communication. 89 00:12:40,421 --> 00:12:43,421 But log it somewhere, yeah? 90 00:12:43,501 --> 00:12:47,021 Any attempt to contact you, just log it. Just in case. 91 00:12:47,101 --> 00:12:48,581 In case of what? 92 00:12:49,821 --> 00:12:51,221 Just in case. 93 00:12:53,981 --> 00:12:55,301 He knows about us. 94 00:12:59,061 --> 00:13:01,381 -How? -Don't know. 95 00:13:04,061 --> 00:13:06,061 Maybe he saw me with the phone. 96 00:13:09,741 --> 00:13:14,381 It's as though he smelled it on me, the sex. 97 00:13:16,781 --> 00:13:18,341 Apple Tree Yard. 98 00:13:23,421 --> 00:13:26,021 Did you tell him anything about me? 99 00:13:26,781 --> 00:13:29,461 -Did you mention my name? -No, of course not. 100 00:13:30,981 --> 00:13:34,021 He doesn't know who you are, just that you exist. 101 00:13:35,861 --> 00:13:39,141 We were talking and I was quite pissed. 102 00:13:40,541 --> 00:13:42,861 -God, why was I so pissed? -Look! 103 00:13:42,941 --> 00:13:47,421 Hey, listen. None of this is your fault. None of it. 104 00:13:55,141 --> 00:13:58,941 -What did he say? -I was talking about Gary. 105 00:13:59,581 --> 00:14:02,701 He said, "Is that why you're fucking someone else?" 106 00:14:04,941 --> 00:14:08,021 -And that's when he... -It's OK. Yvonne. 107 00:14:09,661 --> 00:14:13,181 It's going to be OK. It will. 108 00:14:17,261 --> 00:14:18,861 I'm sorry. 109 00:14:20,901 --> 00:14:22,581 You didn't sign up for this. 110 00:14:24,661 --> 00:14:26,221 I signed up for you. 111 00:14:46,621 --> 00:14:48,341 [Gary] My signature dish. 112 00:14:48,421 --> 00:14:51,821 Microwaved to perfection, if I may say. 113 00:14:52,501 --> 00:14:56,261 -I did try. -If you're not hungry, you're not hungry. 114 00:15:00,141 --> 00:15:04,941 -It's, er... It's girl trouble. -He's talked to you? 115 00:15:05,021 --> 00:15:07,061 Oh, a tiny bit. Just that, really. 116 00:15:07,141 --> 00:15:08,861 There's this girl... 117 00:15:08,941 --> 00:15:11,821 It's not, um, what's-her-name, from the halfway house? 118 00:15:11,901 --> 00:15:14,501 -Ellie? -No, I don't think so. 119 00:15:18,661 --> 00:15:21,221 -Von, don't go rushing in. -Oh, for God's sake! 120 00:15:21,301 --> 00:15:25,021 You think I don't know by now? I've barely asked him a question. 121 00:15:25,861 --> 00:15:29,181 -I know it's hard. -Hard. Yeah. 122 00:15:31,141 --> 00:15:33,461 Why don't you go back to bed, hmm? 123 00:15:34,661 --> 00:15:36,621 You look like you're at death's door. 124 00:15:39,181 --> 00:15:40,381 Yeah. 125 00:15:58,941 --> 00:16:00,901 [phone vibrating] 126 00:16:05,981 --> 00:16:07,821 -Hi. -[X] Listen. 127 00:16:07,901 --> 00:16:09,581 I've thought of something. 128 00:16:09,661 --> 00:16:13,421 I've got someone that you can talk to about what happened. 129 00:16:14,101 --> 00:16:16,981 -An expert. -I'm not sure I want to talk to anyone. 130 00:16:17,061 --> 00:16:19,501 You wouldn't have to go to a police station. 131 00:16:20,701 --> 00:16:25,221 It might just give you a clearer idea of your options. OK? 132 00:16:35,341 --> 00:16:37,901 [music over dialogue] 133 00:16:38,701 --> 00:16:40,461 -Hi. -Hi. 134 00:16:42,261 --> 00:16:45,741 Kevin should be able to advise you on reporting an incident. 135 00:16:51,581 --> 00:16:54,261 [Yvonne] We went up to his office to get his stuff. 136 00:16:55,781 --> 00:16:58,501 We were both quite drunk by that stage. 137 00:17:00,221 --> 00:17:03,461 And he tried to kiss me. I wasn't really taking it seriously. 138 00:17:07,181 --> 00:17:08,341 Then he hit me. 139 00:17:10,261 --> 00:17:12,501 Across the face. Really hard. 140 00:17:14,261 --> 00:17:15,581 That's all it took. 141 00:17:19,981 --> 00:17:21,621 And then, um... 142 00:17:30,301 --> 00:17:32,941 it just seemed to go on for a very long time. 143 00:17:36,141 --> 00:17:38,021 I was too scared to move. 144 00:17:46,621 --> 00:17:49,541 Did he speak at all? 145 00:17:51,221 --> 00:17:53,661 There were a few instructions. 146 00:17:56,661 --> 00:17:58,421 He said at one point... 147 00:18:02,461 --> 00:18:04,261 He said, "Give me your mouth." 148 00:18:05,101 --> 00:18:06,261 [breathes heavily] 149 00:18:09,941 --> 00:18:13,701 That's a terrible thing you've been through. I'm so sorry. 150 00:18:17,021 --> 00:18:19,821 Now, I'm just going to talk you through the process 151 00:18:19,901 --> 00:18:21,661 of reporting the rape, yeah? 152 00:18:22,781 --> 00:18:26,301 Unfortunately, I'm not going to sugar-coat it, Dr Carmichael, 153 00:18:26,381 --> 00:18:28,701 being drunk will be a gift for the defence. 154 00:18:29,701 --> 00:18:31,741 You spent the evening with this man. 155 00:18:31,821 --> 00:18:33,901 -At a party! -But you see where I'm going. 156 00:18:33,981 --> 00:18:37,341 They'll try and frame it as a date-rape type situation. 157 00:18:37,421 --> 00:18:40,821 The first thing this bloke's solicitor will do, if he's charged, 158 00:18:40,901 --> 00:18:43,061 is try to get anything he can on you. 159 00:18:43,741 --> 00:18:45,701 Any... anything you've told his client, 160 00:18:45,781 --> 00:18:49,141 any skeletons in the closet, as it were. 161 00:18:50,861 --> 00:18:53,021 -I see. -And they'll look at everything. 162 00:18:53,101 --> 00:18:56,701 Internet history, family, friends, colleagues. 163 00:18:56,781 --> 00:18:58,981 Anything they can get on your sexual history 164 00:18:59,061 --> 00:19:01,581 that suggests you like it rough. 165 00:19:01,661 --> 00:19:04,781 Any sex tapes or photos. 166 00:19:04,861 --> 00:19:07,621 Well, there aren't any. And I don't. 167 00:19:10,021 --> 00:19:11,661 Will they go after my husband? 168 00:19:11,741 --> 00:19:14,821 They will want to know about the state of your marriage, yeah. 169 00:19:14,901 --> 00:19:18,101 Did you tell your husband straight away after the attack? 170 00:19:20,661 --> 00:19:23,061 I... I couldn't... No. 171 00:19:28,501 --> 00:19:32,461 What about mental illness, depression, anything like that? 172 00:19:33,381 --> 00:19:35,861 Would that come up in court, if I pressed charges? 173 00:19:35,941 --> 00:19:39,381 -If they're trying to discredit me? -Is there anything like that? 174 00:19:42,301 --> 00:19:45,381 When I was eight, my mum committed suicide. 175 00:19:46,501 --> 00:19:49,941 She had, um... depression... 176 00:19:50,661 --> 00:19:54,101 Well, probably exacerbated by post-natal depression. 177 00:19:55,221 --> 00:19:56,861 She never really recovered. 178 00:19:56,941 --> 00:19:58,981 [sighs] And my son. 179 00:20:00,501 --> 00:20:04,061 When he was 17, my son was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. 180 00:20:06,981 --> 00:20:09,421 Adam can't be part of this. He's fragile. 181 00:20:09,501 --> 00:20:13,101 It's unlikely your son's illness would be seen as relevant. 182 00:20:13,181 --> 00:20:15,221 But once you've brought a complaint, 183 00:20:15,301 --> 00:20:18,501 it's not up to you to decide what's used in court and what isn't. 184 00:20:18,581 --> 00:20:20,541 Obviously, I can't tell you what to do, 185 00:20:20,621 --> 00:20:23,301 but what I would say, is if you do decide to go ahead, 186 00:20:23,381 --> 00:20:26,021 you need to report the attack to the police today. 187 00:20:26,101 --> 00:20:29,701 Otherwise, the things that make this very tricky to prove - 188 00:20:29,781 --> 00:20:32,261 not going to the police, not telling your husband, 189 00:20:32,341 --> 00:20:35,501 no forensic evidence - they could become overwhelming. 190 00:20:48,901 --> 00:20:52,261 I was the first person to qualify the Wedekind experiment. 191 00:20:57,381 --> 00:21:00,341 I'm... I'm sorry, I have no idea what that means. 192 00:21:02,141 --> 00:21:04,861 When I started protein sequencing, um... 193 00:21:05,981 --> 00:21:07,421 we were pioneers. 194 00:21:07,501 --> 00:21:09,341 There were no computers 195 00:21:09,421 --> 00:21:13,101 and my team named genes as they were discovered. 196 00:21:13,901 --> 00:21:17,141 Those are names that will be used for as long as science exists. 197 00:21:18,301 --> 00:21:20,621 But if I... If I take this to court, 198 00:21:21,741 --> 00:21:23,941 God, it's a big if, isn't it, because... 199 00:21:24,781 --> 00:21:27,941 it seems like it's all gonna come out, what we've been up to. 200 00:21:28,021 --> 00:21:29,861 We've been really careful, you know. 201 00:21:29,941 --> 00:21:32,021 Yeah, yeah. Dummy camera. 202 00:21:33,221 --> 00:21:35,261 So, OK, it goes to court, then. 203 00:21:37,421 --> 00:21:40,421 The first thing anyone's gonna know about me is that I was... 204 00:21:42,501 --> 00:21:44,541 that George Selway attacked me. 205 00:21:46,141 --> 00:21:50,901 Even if he goes to prison, that's who I am now, a victim. 206 00:21:55,541 --> 00:21:58,141 The world can be such a shitty place. 207 00:22:04,501 --> 00:22:06,861 I thought you thought life's a boon. 208 00:22:07,861 --> 00:22:11,181 Yeah, it can be. 209 00:22:13,821 --> 00:22:15,701 I'm sorry about your son. 210 00:22:17,501 --> 00:22:19,461 It must have been really hard. 211 00:22:24,981 --> 00:22:26,701 I'm really sorry, but I... 212 00:22:27,781 --> 00:22:30,261 I don't think I can ever imagine having sex again. 213 00:22:31,181 --> 00:22:33,621 -I... I wasn't-- -No, no, I know, I know, but... 214 00:22:36,261 --> 00:22:38,381 that was the reason for this, wasn't it? 215 00:22:40,421 --> 00:22:41,821 What's the point? 216 00:22:43,541 --> 00:22:45,141 You've got your wife. 217 00:22:46,941 --> 00:22:48,221 I've got Gary. 218 00:22:49,701 --> 00:22:51,181 And now this. 219 00:22:52,341 --> 00:22:53,621 It's impossible. 220 00:22:53,701 --> 00:22:55,101 No such word. 221 00:22:57,741 --> 00:23:00,341 You were the first person to qualify the... 222 00:23:00,421 --> 00:23:02,621 the Wedekind experiment. 223 00:23:06,301 --> 00:23:09,261 I'm not sure that we should be in touch again. 224 00:23:10,221 --> 00:23:12,181 I think it's wrong for both of us. 225 00:23:13,701 --> 00:23:15,101 I'm really sorry. 226 00:23:39,181 --> 00:23:40,181 [Yvonne] Dear X... 227 00:23:41,421 --> 00:23:45,261 Whatever it was between us, it was never meant to bear much reality. 228 00:23:46,861 --> 00:23:48,581 That was the point, wasn't it? 229 00:23:49,221 --> 00:23:53,261 No real life. No feelings, no mess. 230 00:23:56,541 --> 00:23:59,341 [Susannah] But a steam might have helped, you know. 231 00:23:59,421 --> 00:24:02,901 -Have you been to the doctor? -There's no point for a virus. 232 00:24:02,981 --> 00:24:04,021 Oh, yeah. 233 00:24:04,821 --> 00:24:06,501 It'll just be a couple of weeks. 234 00:24:08,341 --> 00:24:09,661 Anyway, you and Chris. 235 00:24:09,741 --> 00:24:13,341 How come we always talk about me and we never talk about you? 236 00:24:14,741 --> 00:24:16,981 OK, it was the sex. 237 00:24:17,061 --> 00:24:19,621 It was great, in the beginning. 238 00:24:20,341 --> 00:24:22,301 Well, no, it wasn't. 239 00:24:22,381 --> 00:24:25,581 It wasn't the best ever, but it showed promise. 240 00:24:26,301 --> 00:24:30,461 And then I realised it was like a script. 241 00:24:30,541 --> 00:24:34,141 Like porn. Like rough stuff. 242 00:24:35,661 --> 00:24:39,941 Anyway, it wasn't making me feel good about myself. So... 243 00:24:40,021 --> 00:24:42,501 Plus, I spotted a pair of Crocs in his wardrobe. 244 00:24:42,581 --> 00:24:45,581 I realised that I had to split up with him before the summer. 245 00:24:45,661 --> 00:24:47,341 Oh, Suze. 246 00:24:48,181 --> 00:24:52,021 Oh! You'd think I'd have learned my lesson after Jay. 247 00:24:52,101 --> 00:24:55,661 -I mean, me and men! -Hey! 248 00:24:56,941 --> 00:24:59,021 You're fantastic! 249 00:25:01,341 --> 00:25:03,741 There are some truly awful men out there. 250 00:25:03,821 --> 00:25:06,061 I know. I've dated most of them! 251 00:25:06,141 --> 00:25:08,221 No, really monstrous. 252 00:25:09,901 --> 00:25:11,501 I'm sorry, I'm... 253 00:25:13,181 --> 00:25:14,501 miserable. 254 00:25:14,581 --> 00:25:17,101 Hey, fuck him. 255 00:25:17,181 --> 00:25:19,541 Fuck him, and his Crocs. 256 00:25:21,661 --> 00:25:23,141 His fucking Crocs! 257 00:25:29,901 --> 00:25:33,621 -Hey. Nice evening? -Yeah! 258 00:25:34,541 --> 00:25:35,981 You still look wobbly, love. 259 00:25:36,061 --> 00:25:38,821 You sure you're feeling well enough to go back to work? 260 00:25:38,901 --> 00:25:42,021 Can't stay away forever. I'm going up. 261 00:25:42,101 --> 00:25:43,541 [Adam] What? 262 00:25:44,501 --> 00:25:45,741 Mum. 263 00:25:59,421 --> 00:26:03,141 Carrie says even smelling coffee at the moment makes her want to puke. 264 00:26:04,981 --> 00:26:06,981 I hope the baby's OK. 265 00:26:07,061 --> 00:26:09,021 Everything seems fine so far. 266 00:26:09,621 --> 00:26:11,341 Most pregnancies are problem-free, 267 00:26:11,421 --> 00:26:14,261 -especially at Carrie's age. -Ah! The voice of reason! 268 00:26:16,141 --> 00:26:18,621 It's the closest I'll come, I suppose, to babies. 269 00:26:18,701 --> 00:26:21,261 -Being an uncle. -You don't know that. 270 00:26:21,341 --> 00:26:23,901 -There's plenty of time. -Insight into my condition. 271 00:26:23,981 --> 00:26:26,861 All the shrinks say I'm good on that, don't they? 272 00:26:27,661 --> 00:26:30,461 It'd be a very bad idea for me to pass on my genes. 273 00:26:30,541 --> 00:26:32,901 There's no evidence that it's genetic. 274 00:26:35,661 --> 00:26:37,141 It doesn't matter. 275 00:26:37,221 --> 00:26:39,381 There's no danger of me passing on my genes. 276 00:26:39,461 --> 00:26:41,061 No one wants them. 277 00:26:41,901 --> 00:26:44,181 Dad says there's a girl you're interested in. 278 00:26:50,181 --> 00:26:52,821 She's so lovely, Mum. 279 00:26:54,261 --> 00:26:57,381 Kind and funny. 280 00:26:59,941 --> 00:27:01,661 She can even sing. 281 00:27:02,661 --> 00:27:04,421 Like an angel. 282 00:27:08,181 --> 00:27:12,181 How stupid was I to ever think she'd want to hook up with a fuck-up like me? 283 00:27:12,901 --> 00:27:15,781 -There'll be someone for you. -You don't know that! 284 00:27:18,061 --> 00:27:21,221 It's very easy for us to tell ourselves stories about people, 285 00:27:21,301 --> 00:27:24,661 that they're perfect, but no one is. 286 00:27:26,021 --> 00:27:27,581 Not even you? 287 00:27:41,101 --> 00:27:43,301 [Yvonne] You've never talked about your work. 288 00:27:44,421 --> 00:27:46,301 Official Secrets Act and all that. 289 00:27:47,501 --> 00:27:50,021 But you've always encouraged me to talk about mine. 290 00:27:51,421 --> 00:27:53,741 Enjoying the pleasure I take in it, I think. 291 00:27:55,021 --> 00:27:56,541 Work's always been my refuge. 292 00:27:57,301 --> 00:27:59,261 [sounds distort] 293 00:28:01,461 --> 00:28:03,501 [heartbeat pounding] 294 00:28:13,461 --> 00:28:14,941 [car horn honking] 295 00:28:16,181 --> 00:28:18,061 [street life returns] 296 00:28:32,061 --> 00:28:37,301 There are no more refuges for me, no places of safety. 297 00:28:46,421 --> 00:28:48,501 [woman] It's nothing to do with football. 298 00:28:48,581 --> 00:28:51,061 It's what these boys think they can get away with. 299 00:28:51,141 --> 00:28:52,701 You're not gluten free, I hope. 300 00:28:52,781 --> 00:28:56,181 It looks like rice. It's orzo, pasta. 301 00:28:56,901 --> 00:28:59,901 [woman] I mean, oral sex. That's what I don't get. 302 00:28:59,981 --> 00:29:02,741 How can you force someone to give you a blow job? 303 00:29:02,821 --> 00:29:05,021 -Wouldn't you just bite it off? -[laughter] 304 00:29:05,101 --> 00:29:08,741 It's bad enough men peddling crap like that without women making it worse. 305 00:29:08,821 --> 00:29:13,261 I'm just saying, logistically, I'm surprised it doesn't happen. 306 00:29:13,341 --> 00:29:15,701 -They're terrified. -This girl wasn't. 307 00:29:15,781 --> 00:29:18,541 She went back to his hotel room. What was she expecting? 308 00:29:18,621 --> 00:29:21,061 Maybe that he'd show some consideration? 309 00:29:21,141 --> 00:29:24,981 That she'd be allowed to change her mind? Maybe she did say yes to sex, 310 00:29:25,061 --> 00:29:28,701 but she didn't mean yes to him assaulting her in every orifice, 311 00:29:28,781 --> 00:29:32,061 roughing her up, and his mates filming it on their phones. 312 00:29:32,141 --> 00:29:35,421 If these girls get so drunk they can't think straight-- 313 00:29:35,501 --> 00:29:38,661 Maybe you're just too fucking complacent to think straight! 314 00:29:39,701 --> 00:29:42,021 -Yvonne. -[distant baby crying] 315 00:29:42,101 --> 00:29:44,061 Your baby's really crying. 316 00:29:46,341 --> 00:29:47,861 [Yvonne] I'm sorry. 317 00:29:47,941 --> 00:29:52,621 You're lovely and your house is lovely and you give lovely dinner parties 318 00:29:52,701 --> 00:29:56,341 and everything in your world is lovely, so you don't have the imagination 319 00:29:56,421 --> 00:29:59,421 to see what it's like when bad things happen, just randomly. 320 00:29:59,501 --> 00:30:02,501 Great torrents of shit descending on ordinary people. 321 00:30:02,581 --> 00:30:05,301 So you're looking for who's to blame, 'cos that's less scary 322 00:30:05,381 --> 00:30:08,141 than facing up to the fact that awful things can happen, 323 00:30:08,221 --> 00:30:11,821 even to someone as lovely as you, really awful things. 324 00:30:36,221 --> 00:30:37,781 Is this my fault? 325 00:30:42,821 --> 00:30:44,421 I'm sorry. 326 00:30:45,501 --> 00:30:47,381 That business with Rosa. 327 00:30:48,941 --> 00:30:50,741 No, it's not that. 328 00:30:53,461 --> 00:30:54,701 Really? 329 00:30:57,461 --> 00:30:59,141 Well, what then? 330 00:31:05,781 --> 00:31:07,981 I'm thinking of leaving the Beaufort. 331 00:31:10,541 --> 00:31:11,581 Why? 332 00:31:12,621 --> 00:31:14,941 I'm not enjoying it any more and... 333 00:31:16,461 --> 00:31:18,581 it's really, really getting me down. 334 00:31:18,661 --> 00:31:21,421 -Since when? You never said. -I'll make up the money. 335 00:31:21,501 --> 00:31:23,861 I've got consultancy work coming out of my ears. 336 00:31:23,941 --> 00:31:26,701 It's not the money. There's nowhere like it. 337 00:31:28,421 --> 00:31:31,301 -Is it something specific? -No. No. 338 00:31:32,101 --> 00:31:33,701 It's just... 339 00:31:35,901 --> 00:31:40,981 It's been building up, generally, and it exploded all over Marcia tonight. 340 00:31:44,261 --> 00:31:46,381 I'll ring her in the morning to apologise. 341 00:31:52,861 --> 00:31:55,421 [Yvonne] I'm serious, Liz, I told you no leaving do. 342 00:31:55,501 --> 00:31:57,181 Let's have a drink when the dust has settled. 343 00:31:57,261 --> 00:31:58,661 -I'll email you some dates. -[doorbell] 344 00:31:58,741 --> 00:32:00,061 [Adam] I'll get it. 345 00:32:00,141 --> 00:32:02,941 -[front door shuts] -[Yvonne] I've got to go. Bye. 346 00:32:06,181 --> 00:32:08,141 Secret admirer! 347 00:32:26,221 --> 00:32:27,621 Mum? Are you OK? 348 00:32:29,181 --> 00:32:30,501 Mum! 349 00:32:48,981 --> 00:32:51,621 [Carrie] So, the Beaufort? 350 00:32:51,701 --> 00:32:53,981 Dad seems a bit confused about you leaving. 351 00:32:54,701 --> 00:32:57,541 -He's talked to you about it? -In his way. 352 00:32:57,621 --> 00:32:59,861 He said something about your "time of life", 353 00:32:59,941 --> 00:33:02,861 as though resigning was like a symptom of menopause. 354 00:33:02,941 --> 00:33:04,501 Is it? 355 00:33:04,581 --> 00:33:06,501 It just doesn't suit me anymore. 356 00:33:06,581 --> 00:33:08,901 I needed a change of direction. 357 00:33:08,981 --> 00:33:11,421 You're not going off trekking in Nepal, are you? 358 00:33:11,501 --> 00:33:16,541 Or start having a wild affair? 'Cos, you know, timing. 359 00:33:16,621 --> 00:33:19,781 I really like working from home and your dad's busier than ever, 360 00:33:19,861 --> 00:33:22,421 so I can afford to take my foot off the pedal a bit. 361 00:33:22,501 --> 00:33:25,901 Oh, yeah, this conference in Estonia! That's random. 362 00:33:32,101 --> 00:33:33,621 Mum... 363 00:33:34,581 --> 00:33:36,861 You're not depressed, are you? 364 00:33:38,021 --> 00:33:40,141 No. No, of course not. 365 00:33:44,101 --> 00:33:45,901 [newsreader indistinct] 366 00:33:51,621 --> 00:33:55,341 [Yvonne] Dear X. I loved you touching me. 367 00:33:56,341 --> 00:33:57,701 Everywhere. 368 00:33:58,941 --> 00:34:01,341 I can't imagine that ever again. 369 00:34:03,981 --> 00:34:05,621 But I do still want you, 370 00:34:05,701 --> 00:34:07,101 just you. 371 00:34:08,181 --> 00:34:11,861 And it's terrible, because it keeps me feeling. 372 00:34:13,621 --> 00:34:17,581 And the only way I can see to get through this is to be numb. 373 00:34:17,661 --> 00:34:19,741 -[Adam] See ya. -[front door opens] 374 00:34:19,821 --> 00:34:21,341 [door slams] 375 00:34:26,741 --> 00:34:28,981 [Yvonne] I think about you every single day. 376 00:34:30,941 --> 00:34:33,581 Most minutes of each day, if I'm honest. 377 00:34:35,941 --> 00:34:37,941 This is what I cling to. 378 00:34:38,021 --> 00:34:41,821 While you're off saving the free world, you think of me. 379 00:34:43,581 --> 00:34:46,861 Because you saw me. I really think you did. 380 00:34:48,661 --> 00:34:53,221 And I saw you, and that's a rare thing between two human beings. 381 00:35:42,741 --> 00:35:44,581 [phone plinks] 382 00:35:57,541 --> 00:35:59,421 [sound distorting] 383 00:36:37,861 --> 00:36:40,421 [car draws up outside] 384 00:36:41,221 --> 00:36:42,621 [horn honks] 385 00:36:44,421 --> 00:36:45,861 I'm off, Von! 386 00:36:51,021 --> 00:36:53,221 -Well, knock 'em dead! -Ha. 387 00:36:54,341 --> 00:36:56,101 "Hello, Estonia!" 388 00:37:11,581 --> 00:37:13,181 Gary! 389 00:37:13,261 --> 00:37:15,541 [footsteps running upstairs] 390 00:37:16,661 --> 00:37:19,181 I thought he was leaving at the end of the month. 391 00:37:19,261 --> 00:37:22,141 Oh, he's had a good run. He stayed longer than we thought. 392 00:37:22,221 --> 00:37:23,741 Yeah, but not to say anything. 393 00:37:24,781 --> 00:37:27,861 He mentioned to me last night he was thinking of heading back. 394 00:37:27,941 --> 00:37:29,501 I presumed he meant at the end of the week. 395 00:37:30,501 --> 00:37:32,181 What did I do? 396 00:37:33,621 --> 00:37:37,981 Why does he find it so easy to talk to you and bloody impossible to talk to me? 397 00:37:38,621 --> 00:37:41,461 Hey, Adam loves you to bits, you know he does. 398 00:37:42,661 --> 00:37:44,821 There's a thin line, and all that. 399 00:37:45,661 --> 00:37:48,341 -[horn honks] -I have to go to the airport. 400 00:37:49,021 --> 00:37:51,421 -I hope it's fun. -Fun? 401 00:39:50,261 --> 00:39:51,781 [ringing] 402 00:39:59,061 --> 00:40:00,901 -[X] Hi. -Oh, um... 403 00:40:01,501 --> 00:40:04,821 I didn't think you were gonna pick up. I was gonna leave a message. 404 00:40:04,901 --> 00:40:06,501 Has something happened? 405 00:40:06,581 --> 00:40:09,021 -Are you all right? -[crying] It's George Selway. 406 00:40:09,101 --> 00:40:10,901 He won't leave me alone. 407 00:40:11,821 --> 00:40:14,661 He must have followed me to the hairdressers, and... 408 00:40:14,741 --> 00:40:16,901 he just turned up in the shop near my house. 409 00:40:16,981 --> 00:40:19,821 Wait, hang on. Are you saying that he's stalking you now? 410 00:40:19,901 --> 00:40:21,461 I don't know, but I... 411 00:40:21,541 --> 00:40:23,741 He's been texting me, and... 412 00:40:24,461 --> 00:40:26,581 a few weeks ago, he sent me flowers. 413 00:40:27,261 --> 00:40:31,061 -I'm really, really, scared. -No, of course. Look, all right. 414 00:40:31,141 --> 00:40:34,541 I'm going to give you an address and I need you to listen carefully. 415 00:40:34,621 --> 00:40:36,941 -I haven't got a pen. -No, don't write it down. 416 00:40:37,021 --> 00:40:40,581 You've got a good memory. Ready? It's 12 Merthyr Court. 417 00:40:40,661 --> 00:40:45,301 That's M-E-R-T-H-Y-R, like the place in Wales. 418 00:40:45,381 --> 00:40:48,741 Chamberland Road, SE11. 419 00:40:48,821 --> 00:40:52,621 I'll see you there tomorrow, as close to 2 p.m. as I can make it. 420 00:40:52,701 --> 00:40:54,821 We can talk properly there, all right? 421 00:40:55,501 --> 00:40:59,261 Look, just don't put it in your phones, not even into maps, OK? 422 00:40:59,341 --> 00:41:01,581 OK. Thank you. 423 00:41:01,661 --> 00:41:04,541 I'll see you tomorrow. I'm really glad you called, Yvonne. 424 00:41:06,541 --> 00:41:09,581 -Say my name again. -Yvonne. 425 00:41:10,861 --> 00:41:14,381 We'll see each other tomorrow, all right? We'll be together. 426 00:41:14,461 --> 00:41:15,861 OK? 427 00:41:16,541 --> 00:41:17,901 I've got to go. 428 00:41:47,741 --> 00:41:49,941 [distant siren wailing] 429 00:41:58,781 --> 00:42:00,221 [beep] 430 00:42:22,301 --> 00:42:23,701 It's, er... 431 00:42:25,621 --> 00:42:29,421 We're not talking boutique hotel, obviously. 432 00:42:29,501 --> 00:42:32,101 It's OK. It's safe. 433 00:42:33,461 --> 00:42:34,501 Safe house. 434 00:42:38,741 --> 00:42:41,421 I know you're not allowed to talk about what you do. 435 00:42:44,861 --> 00:42:47,021 Do... do you want to take your coat off? 436 00:44:09,861 --> 00:44:11,381 I'm not asleep. 437 00:44:13,221 --> 00:44:15,861 -[Yvonne] But my arm is. -[chuckles] 438 00:44:27,581 --> 00:44:29,421 So, what do you want to do? 439 00:44:33,621 --> 00:44:35,261 About Selway? 440 00:44:37,341 --> 00:44:39,781 [whispers] Can't you warn him off for me? 441 00:44:39,861 --> 00:44:42,341 Nothing would give me greater pleasure. 442 00:44:44,461 --> 00:44:46,141 Well, almost nothing. 443 00:44:53,821 --> 00:44:56,261 Don't tell me you wouldn't like to put the wind 444 00:44:56,341 --> 00:44:59,341 right up that pathetic piece of shit. 445 00:44:59,421 --> 00:45:01,021 Yeah, I would. 446 00:45:02,501 --> 00:45:04,821 I want him to crap himself with fear. 447 00:45:07,581 --> 00:45:13,061 I want him to feel just half as terrified as he made me feel. 448 00:45:15,301 --> 00:45:17,581 I'm not really the one for that job, am I? 449 00:45:19,421 --> 00:45:21,421 As far as I'm concerned, 450 00:45:22,381 --> 00:45:24,901 I think he thinks he can do whatever he likes. 451 00:45:24,981 --> 00:45:27,101 So, it has to change! 452 00:45:29,581 --> 00:45:32,541 I suppose you know people... 453 00:45:33,741 --> 00:45:34,741 [X] Yeah. 454 00:45:37,701 --> 00:45:39,741 But I'd like to see his face. 455 00:45:41,541 --> 00:45:43,181 Wouldn't you? 456 00:46:13,661 --> 00:46:14,861 [Gary] It's early. 457 00:46:16,421 --> 00:46:20,061 Yeah. Got stuff to do. 458 00:46:25,501 --> 00:46:27,501 How was it all, Estonia? 459 00:46:29,301 --> 00:46:31,701 Von. Von. 460 00:46:33,301 --> 00:46:34,621 [sighs] Von. 461 00:46:41,501 --> 00:46:43,141 You should know, um... 462 00:46:46,421 --> 00:46:48,301 The thing is, the conference... 463 00:46:48,901 --> 00:46:51,301 Rosa came with me to the conference. 464 00:46:58,701 --> 00:47:00,541 So, you are sleeping with her? 465 00:47:02,061 --> 00:47:04,261 I wasn't before. I didn't lie. 466 00:47:09,621 --> 00:47:11,141 We never have sex. 467 00:47:14,661 --> 00:47:17,621 -So, it's my fault? -I'm not trying to blame you. 468 00:47:18,541 --> 00:47:20,101 It's an explanation. 469 00:47:23,661 --> 00:47:26,661 Pretty standard mid-life crisis stuff, I'm afraid. 470 00:47:32,501 --> 00:47:33,741 Sure. 471 00:47:37,541 --> 00:47:38,861 Yvonne! 472 00:47:42,061 --> 00:47:44,421 The recycling place gets mobbed on a Saturday. 473 00:47:44,501 --> 00:47:46,701 We can talk about it when I get back. 474 00:47:47,301 --> 00:47:48,581 You don't need me! 475 00:47:51,341 --> 00:47:52,941 Is that what you think? 476 00:48:43,301 --> 00:48:45,421 [engine starts] 477 00:49:03,701 --> 00:49:05,221 What are you gonna say to him? 478 00:49:06,981 --> 00:49:08,821 I thought I'd freestyle it. 479 00:49:34,421 --> 00:49:36,021 [doorbell rings] 480 00:50:27,341 --> 00:50:28,461 [screams] 481 00:50:34,021 --> 00:50:36,861 [Yvonne] Is there any such thing as a point of no return? 482 00:50:39,541 --> 00:50:41,181 I used to think there wasn't. 483 00:50:41,261 --> 00:50:43,781 [clerk] Will the defendant please stand? 484 00:50:43,861 --> 00:50:45,461 [Yvonne] And then I met you. 485 00:50:46,461 --> 00:50:51,181 Fucking bitch! You deserve everything you get! 486 00:50:51,261 --> 00:50:54,581 I hope you're happy now you've destroyed our lives! 487 00:50:55,541 --> 00:50:57,741 Oh, you bitch, you evil bitch!